a lot of people say resolutions are just for fun. is it true?
I dun think so, especially this yr's a BIG, CRUCIAL year for me.
WHY?
1) My 1st full Year in NUS and ministry
2) crucial year in my personal growth in God
3)Big year to get my results right
4) A yr of character,fightback, faith n strength
so, i am looking forward to this new yr with loads of expectation for growth, results n fruitfulness!
so what am i looking for this 2009?
1) Greater intimacy with God by being more consistent in my prayer n reading of the word of God (no more excuses, esp next sem staying in hostel)
2) Higher capacity to keep my emotions in check by guarding my heart. when negative thoughts n emotions come, fill it with positive stuff with purpose n intent
3)Have a balance between hot-blooded aggression n cool-headed composure by slowing down when dealing with people, n do things with aggression n excellence.
4)better discipline and organisation in handling of things
5) stay balanced between God, studies, track n field training, friends n ministry
6) Closer friendship with cg mates n fairfield pple n of course also existing friends n being a blessing in their lives.
7) further growth of fairfield grp, in terms of number n quality
8) Greater capacity to serve God n CG
9) better financial management n completion of Building fund pledge
10) a tution assignment to help cover cost
11) a greater passion to win ppl for christ!
12) Greater desire to disciple n sheperd ppl
13) Constantly led by the Holy spirit n love of God
14)IF possible, obtain obtain a coaching license in football
15) Read more n extensively
Sounds like a lot, but really i dun wanna end 2009 as the same as 2008!
God as i lift these resolutions to you, Lord, u will organise n guide my steps. Lead me to greater growth, fruitfulness n strength for you glory n honour!=D
My good friends, i really hope we can work together to help fulfil each other's resolutions n keep other on track!=D
I REALLY DUN WANT ALL THESE RESOLUTIONS TO GO TO WASTE! ONE LIFE, ONE 2009 TO LIVE!
Wednesday, December 31, 2008
Wednesday, December 24, 2008
Updates
It has been a long long while since i last updated the blog. been busy with exams, singapore marathon and holiday in malaysia.
After a challenging battle in the exams front, finally could take some time off to prepare for my 1st ever full-marathon. was targetting for a 6 hr completion time, but did it in an unexpected timing of 4hr 50 mins. I thought it was pretty crazy and a big feat to do in sub 5 hrs esp it's the 1st time i am doing it. Really wanna thank God for this.=D
As i am typing this, i am now in my hometown with my mum, as we will be attending my cousin's wedding the next day(sat). looking back the past 3 weeks, have really been enjoying myself in terms of fun, relatives,shopping and food! I am really a very blessed man. Wanna thank God for such a wonderful time with my family and also all the shopping n food that my mum has paid for. Estimated amt spent: 700 to 800 ringgit( abt 350-400 sing dollars). new clothes(including 1 pink top), new slippers, new sandals, new shoes, a new watch and new sporting kit. what can i ask for? in addition, a tuition assginment coming in in 2009, what financial blessing i have received! what can i ask for from God? esp after giving an offering that i have never given before and being involved in building fund and serving Him?
of course in life, when there are good things, the not so good stuff will also come.fever last week, not so good NUS results(lower than my expectations). Looking at it, of course people will look at the not so good stuff. But i still wanna praise the Lord, as i knew it could have been worse and God has seen me through safely, especially in terms of my results.Fever have since recovered and back on track.
Looking back for the whole year, I do admit i have made mistakes along the way, in terms of time management, handling of relationships, carrying of image etc, but i am looking forward to 2009, reason being, it's a new start and i know it WILL and CAN ONLY get better!=D All the more, i still wanna serve God better and serve the fairfield guys n the cg better, loving people more and at the same time, studying n scoring better results, getting fitter for IHG soccer and be part of races with NUS X-country. OF course i can never forget n forsake time with the Lord, especially now being in hostel, no more excuses!wanna be more intimate with the Lord. In 2009, i also hope to improve myself in terms of seeing things in a bigger picture, living a balanced lifestyle and expansion of my mind and heart.=D
Things to do after holidays:
1) sort out hostel stuff
2) bid for my modules
3)get my textbooks
4)read n prepare for the modules involved
5)pray myself up for the new sem n year
Targets for 2009? next entry
meanwhile, happy holidays n have a blessed new yr ahead! jia you!=D
After a challenging battle in the exams front, finally could take some time off to prepare for my 1st ever full-marathon. was targetting for a 6 hr completion time, but did it in an unexpected timing of 4hr 50 mins. I thought it was pretty crazy and a big feat to do in sub 5 hrs esp it's the 1st time i am doing it. Really wanna thank God for this.=D
As i am typing this, i am now in my hometown with my mum, as we will be attending my cousin's wedding the next day(sat). looking back the past 3 weeks, have really been enjoying myself in terms of fun, relatives,shopping and food! I am really a very blessed man. Wanna thank God for such a wonderful time with my family and also all the shopping n food that my mum has paid for. Estimated amt spent: 700 to 800 ringgit( abt 350-400 sing dollars). new clothes(including 1 pink top), new slippers, new sandals, new shoes, a new watch and new sporting kit. what can i ask for? in addition, a tuition assginment coming in in 2009, what financial blessing i have received! what can i ask for from God? esp after giving an offering that i have never given before and being involved in building fund and serving Him?
of course in life, when there are good things, the not so good stuff will also come.fever last week, not so good NUS results(lower than my expectations). Looking at it, of course people will look at the not so good stuff. But i still wanna praise the Lord, as i knew it could have been worse and God has seen me through safely, especially in terms of my results.Fever have since recovered and back on track.
Looking back for the whole year, I do admit i have made mistakes along the way, in terms of time management, handling of relationships, carrying of image etc, but i am looking forward to 2009, reason being, it's a new start and i know it WILL and CAN ONLY get better!=D All the more, i still wanna serve God better and serve the fairfield guys n the cg better, loving people more and at the same time, studying n scoring better results, getting fitter for IHG soccer and be part of races with NUS X-country. OF course i can never forget n forsake time with the Lord, especially now being in hostel, no more excuses!wanna be more intimate with the Lord. In 2009, i also hope to improve myself in terms of seeing things in a bigger picture, living a balanced lifestyle and expansion of my mind and heart.=D
Things to do after holidays:
1) sort out hostel stuff
2) bid for my modules
3)get my textbooks
4)read n prepare for the modules involved
5)pray myself up for the new sem n year
Targets for 2009? next entry
meanwhile, happy holidays n have a blessed new yr ahead! jia you!=D
Sunday, November 23, 2008
Thoughts of the past week and asia conference
one word: WOW!
1st asia conference and i'm blown away! though missed out tonight's finale and thu, i went for the rest! I mean, wat a waste if i didn't go! there's a lot of things i expereinced and most importantly,God refreshed me for greater things to come through Benny Hinn's session!
Lots of things i have learnt and received great impartation from the speakers, especially Dr. A.R. Bernard, Benny Hinn and Pastor Kong.
Indeed what Kee liang mentioned in the blog is so true, why be so cropped up with studies? To some may think: if i were to go to asia conference means less time for studies. Which is so not true. I mean as i am resting from my final preparations for tmr's CM 1101 paper, i realised tat i can concentrate better after going for the past 2 days of asia conference. Can do it with a less tense pace and doing it with the holy spirit really charges n refreshes me.
Calculus paper was yesterday, though i admit i am not too optimistic abt the result, but i pray that God will do a miracle to at least see me get a pass grade.I admit my preparations for calculus weren't the best, esp sickness struck me the past week, means less time for studying but in spite of it, i did what i could and even went for asia conference. I pray that God will see my heart n pull me through.
Based on what i have received from God through the conference, there are a few things i wanna set myself right once again:
1)Be more active my walk with God. Dec will be a crucial month as i am gonna pray n read the Word on a consistent basis.(especially).Wanna go in to the new yr right with God and doing more for Him.
2) gonna be more faithful in serving Kee Liang. Realised that I am at the stage where i am serving another man's ministry. It's part of the journey for me being a cgl. It's a price to pay.
3)Start to read up more things that is beyond christianity n sports. God spoke and asked me, why not u begin to read up more to expand my scope of knowledge? dun be so confined with just the things i am doing now. No harm knowing more.
4)BE MORE DISCIPLINED! esp in the mind, gotta bring it to the obedience of Christ.
5)Start to step out of my comfort zone more to engage the market place with spiritual insulation!
6)Be more organised in the way I do things! BE EFFECTIVE!
Can't thing of more now, but the above 6 is more crucial than anything else.
Just as like what Huiyu said, Just admit i need God n let God lead the way.
God, i really need You, and since i rededicated my life to u once again, I dun wanna waste the anointing u place in my life and help me to be right with You once again. I dun wanna grow the fairfield grp by doing ministry, but really wanna grow the grp with God's leading and trusting You more.
1st asia conference and i'm blown away! though missed out tonight's finale and thu, i went for the rest! I mean, wat a waste if i didn't go! there's a lot of things i expereinced and most importantly,God refreshed me for greater things to come through Benny Hinn's session!
Lots of things i have learnt and received great impartation from the speakers, especially Dr. A.R. Bernard, Benny Hinn and Pastor Kong.
Indeed what Kee liang mentioned in the blog is so true, why be so cropped up with studies? To some may think: if i were to go to asia conference means less time for studies. Which is so not true. I mean as i am resting from my final preparations for tmr's CM 1101 paper, i realised tat i can concentrate better after going for the past 2 days of asia conference. Can do it with a less tense pace and doing it with the holy spirit really charges n refreshes me.
Calculus paper was yesterday, though i admit i am not too optimistic abt the result, but i pray that God will do a miracle to at least see me get a pass grade.I admit my preparations for calculus weren't the best, esp sickness struck me the past week, means less time for studying but in spite of it, i did what i could and even went for asia conference. I pray that God will see my heart n pull me through.
Based on what i have received from God through the conference, there are a few things i wanna set myself right once again:
1)Be more active my walk with God. Dec will be a crucial month as i am gonna pray n read the Word on a consistent basis.(especially).Wanna go in to the new yr right with God and doing more for Him.
2) gonna be more faithful in serving Kee Liang. Realised that I am at the stage where i am serving another man's ministry. It's part of the journey for me being a cgl. It's a price to pay.
3)Start to read up more things that is beyond christianity n sports. God spoke and asked me, why not u begin to read up more to expand my scope of knowledge? dun be so confined with just the things i am doing now. No harm knowing more.
4)BE MORE DISCIPLINED! esp in the mind, gotta bring it to the obedience of Christ.
5)Start to step out of my comfort zone more to engage the market place with spiritual insulation!
6)Be more organised in the way I do things! BE EFFECTIVE!
Can't thing of more now, but the above 6 is more crucial than anything else.
Just as like what Huiyu said, Just admit i need God n let God lead the way.
God, i really need You, and since i rededicated my life to u once again, I dun wanna waste the anointing u place in my life and help me to be right with You once again. I dun wanna grow the fairfield grp by doing ministry, but really wanna grow the grp with God's leading and trusting You more.
Monday, November 17, 2008
Recovery from illness
The past 3 days has been days of hardship in terms of difficulty for my body to cope with illness but great in terms of the amount of rest i have.
Unfortunately, friday was the day i got acute food poisoning and fever(some ppl say it's stomach flu). WHAT A TIME TO GET IT, ESP IS JUST BEFORE YOUR EXAMS WHEN WHAT YOU NEED MOST IS TIME TO STUDY!
So was spending time on sat and sun to fully recuperate from it and turned out it was to be a blessing. Really recovered from the sickness and the past exertions. It was good rest, really good rest and recovery.
Though revision was done in leisure pace, but i seem to enjoy studying more and somemore done in the presence of God, absoprtion and understanding is better. so really, revision is good to do it on leisure pace and do the best I can. I will let God do the rest.
Besides me doing my part to study and work hard, the rest are out of my hands, By God's hands, mercy and grace I will do well(4.5 CAP).God, i am depending on you as i continue to pray, seek Your face n study.=D
Asia conference is coming up, so for sure i will be there, esp for the sat session with benny Hinn. I pray and believe I can receive God's impartation from Him.=D
More on Asia Conference as i go for the sessions, but i really believe my life will be transformed through this conference. God touch me! God transform my heart for Your Glory!=D
Unfortunately, friday was the day i got acute food poisoning and fever(some ppl say it's stomach flu). WHAT A TIME TO GET IT, ESP IS JUST BEFORE YOUR EXAMS WHEN WHAT YOU NEED MOST IS TIME TO STUDY!
So was spending time on sat and sun to fully recuperate from it and turned out it was to be a blessing. Really recovered from the sickness and the past exertions. It was good rest, really good rest and recovery.
Though revision was done in leisure pace, but i seem to enjoy studying more and somemore done in the presence of God, absoprtion and understanding is better. so really, revision is good to do it on leisure pace and do the best I can. I will let God do the rest.
Besides me doing my part to study and work hard, the rest are out of my hands, By God's hands, mercy and grace I will do well(4.5 CAP).God, i am depending on you as i continue to pray, seek Your face n study.=D
Asia conference is coming up, so for sure i will be there, esp for the sat session with benny Hinn. I pray and believe I can receive God's impartation from Him.=D
More on Asia Conference as i go for the sessions, but i really believe my life will be transformed through this conference. God touch me! God transform my heart for Your Glory!=D
Thursday, November 13, 2008
Doing things just to please God!=D
Finally I understand what it really means to do things just to please God. Unbelievable, a breakthrough i must say, though was painful. No Longer I but Christ living in me.
It all started on tuesday when i forgot to bring someone's chem worksheet(i decline to name the person for privacy, though it's a she) due to my carelessness.of course i apologised and offered to pass it to her at night, which she rejected it. She told me to bring it the next day, though she looked unhappy. she even rejected my apology offer of a meal.
2 hours later, she left her precious DS in one of the LTs and when she called me to get it for her, i responded immmediately.got it for her, and safeguarded it in my locker, just to make sure it's not damaged and i have it ard. this must be a good deed right? but the worse was yet to come.
Next morning, just arrived in the lecture, haven had the chance to face my locker, she came to me with a black face bugging for the worksheet and the DS. the worksheet i passed it to her but i told her the DS is in my locker and i have not accessed my locker, so i told her that i will pass it to her later. for the whole lecture she just continued to bug me for the DS and treating me with an indifferent attitude towards me for the whole lecture. I mean, not trying to be insecure, but i really feel unappreciated and sensed that she isn't tat thankful tat i saved her DS after all. Of course i understand is her precious, but i haven had the chance to access the locker. and coz of her continuous bugging, i got frustrated and not wanting her to get blasted by me, i decided to keep quiet and even get myself out of the lt to cool myself down. the ranting continued n in the end I lost control of my emotions n shouted at her. It shocked the LT. even before the lecture ended, i left to cool myself down. The whole day was so bad that i couldn't concentrate on my studies.
Today, i really felt like someone using a sletch hammer smashing my heart. so after my freshman sem lesson, i prayed to God and asked, is this whole thing from you? God just replied me the following:
Jesus died on the cross for the sins of the world, but not all apreciated Him. Though u could have handled it with more calm n composure, but the motivation of the DS thing is spot on. There will be people who will not appreciate the good things that you have done. Key = Do it unto the Lord.
I mean God is using this to break me to be more secure in Him. Unbelievable! God wants me to live "no longer I, but Christ who live in me" lifestyle. All the more, i wanna do the right thing and please God. Comments from other ppl not that impt(as in can still learn from it), so long as my action pleases God, nothing else counts!
Thank you Lord for breaking me once again n help me to live a life that no matter what happens, i will still go out there to bless the ppl u wan me to.=D
That's all n more to come! cheers!
It all started on tuesday when i forgot to bring someone's chem worksheet(i decline to name the person for privacy, though it's a she) due to my carelessness.of course i apologised and offered to pass it to her at night, which she rejected it. She told me to bring it the next day, though she looked unhappy. she even rejected my apology offer of a meal.
2 hours later, she left her precious DS in one of the LTs and when she called me to get it for her, i responded immmediately.got it for her, and safeguarded it in my locker, just to make sure it's not damaged and i have it ard. this must be a good deed right? but the worse was yet to come.
Next morning, just arrived in the lecture, haven had the chance to face my locker, she came to me with a black face bugging for the worksheet and the DS. the worksheet i passed it to her but i told her the DS is in my locker and i have not accessed my locker, so i told her that i will pass it to her later. for the whole lecture she just continued to bug me for the DS and treating me with an indifferent attitude towards me for the whole lecture. I mean, not trying to be insecure, but i really feel unappreciated and sensed that she isn't tat thankful tat i saved her DS after all. Of course i understand is her precious, but i haven had the chance to access the locker. and coz of her continuous bugging, i got frustrated and not wanting her to get blasted by me, i decided to keep quiet and even get myself out of the lt to cool myself down. the ranting continued n in the end I lost control of my emotions n shouted at her. It shocked the LT. even before the lecture ended, i left to cool myself down. The whole day was so bad that i couldn't concentrate on my studies.
Today, i really felt like someone using a sletch hammer smashing my heart. so after my freshman sem lesson, i prayed to God and asked, is this whole thing from you? God just replied me the following:
Jesus died on the cross for the sins of the world, but not all apreciated Him. Though u could have handled it with more calm n composure, but the motivation of the DS thing is spot on. There will be people who will not appreciate the good things that you have done. Key = Do it unto the Lord.
I mean God is using this to break me to be more secure in Him. Unbelievable! God wants me to live "no longer I, but Christ who live in me" lifestyle. All the more, i wanna do the right thing and please God. Comments from other ppl not that impt(as in can still learn from it), so long as my action pleases God, nothing else counts!
Thank you Lord for breaking me once again n help me to live a life that no matter what happens, i will still go out there to bless the ppl u wan me to.=D
That's all n more to come! cheers!
Monday, November 10, 2008
I'm set free!
Although it's 2 weeks before my 1st ever exams in NUS, I must say i've never felt so free on the inside!
Though today's a little tiring, 4 hr lecture, went to HDB before tat and consultation,but on the inside i felt free n relaxed inspite of the pressure. this is what i really call peace of the Lord! After the last few days of tremendous revelation on the negative spiritual effects on competition, now i realised it's actually sth scary.
Was having lunch after lecture with a friend, as i wanted to borrow his notes to reference. He began to share that he's very angry because of the system and if he does not earn 5-6k eventually, he will punish the government or sth(sounds very strong , ah?)I told him to chill it off a bit, no need to get so intense one. n seeing him so stressed up while studying, i asked him why not relax n calm urself down and his response was "I cannot afford it". and that began to strike my heart, and saw wat i was doing during the past weeks, studying so hard for dean's list, but not enjoying the process at all, even had the response of "i cannot afford not to get dean's list". to think of it, i am thankful for the Lord that He pulled me out of this. Painful it may be, but it's for my good. then went to the consultation venue, prayed for protection of my heart from that and prayed for peace of God to come upon his heart.I do not want to lose who I am in christ, just because I want to compete and prove a point! I have decided all the more,i want to enjoy this journey! If i get to be in dean's list, Praise th Lord for such fantastic results, even if i don't get it, i will still praise the Lord that He has seen me through the semester n scoring above 3.5 for CAP.
Lord, as far as i am believing you for Dean's list, i only wanna do it with the joy, peace and happiness of the Lord. Help Me Lord through this exams and i know as i continue to serve you as a CGC/helper, i know you will see me through n bless me abundantly! You will not shortchange me! =D
Tmr's another day of revision n is for my not-so-strong module, calculus! Gonna work hard for it and revise it well!of course not forgetting to pray and live a balanced life!=D
Let me end this blog with a verse that really struck me the past week:
Gal 5:26 (amplified bible)
Let us not become vainglorious and self-conceited, competitive and challenging and provoking and irritating to one another, envying and being jealous of one another.
Remember, be free to love n accept myself and one another without feeling the pressure to compete or compare!=D I am secure in the Lord and will walk according to the plan God has for me! I am not threatened by others!
Though today's a little tiring, 4 hr lecture, went to HDB before tat and consultation,but on the inside i felt free n relaxed inspite of the pressure. this is what i really call peace of the Lord! After the last few days of tremendous revelation on the negative spiritual effects on competition, now i realised it's actually sth scary.
Was having lunch after lecture with a friend, as i wanted to borrow his notes to reference. He began to share that he's very angry because of the system and if he does not earn 5-6k eventually, he will punish the government or sth(sounds very strong , ah?)I told him to chill it off a bit, no need to get so intense one. n seeing him so stressed up while studying, i asked him why not relax n calm urself down and his response was "I cannot afford it". and that began to strike my heart, and saw wat i was doing during the past weeks, studying so hard for dean's list, but not enjoying the process at all, even had the response of "i cannot afford not to get dean's list". to think of it, i am thankful for the Lord that He pulled me out of this. Painful it may be, but it's for my good. then went to the consultation venue, prayed for protection of my heart from that and prayed for peace of God to come upon his heart.I do not want to lose who I am in christ, just because I want to compete and prove a point! I have decided all the more,i want to enjoy this journey! If i get to be in dean's list, Praise th Lord for such fantastic results, even if i don't get it, i will still praise the Lord that He has seen me through the semester n scoring above 3.5 for CAP.
Lord, as far as i am believing you for Dean's list, i only wanna do it with the joy, peace and happiness of the Lord. Help Me Lord through this exams and i know as i continue to serve you as a CGC/helper, i know you will see me through n bless me abundantly! You will not shortchange me! =D
Tmr's another day of revision n is for my not-so-strong module, calculus! Gonna work hard for it and revise it well!of course not forgetting to pray and live a balanced life!=D
Let me end this blog with a verse that really struck me the past week:
Gal 5:26 (amplified bible)
Let us not become vainglorious and self-conceited, competitive and challenging and provoking and irritating to one another, envying and being jealous of one another.
Remember, be free to love n accept myself and one another without feeling the pressure to compete or compare!=D I am secure in the Lord and will walk according to the plan God has for me! I am not threatened by others!
New Blog!
This is my new blog, which i'm gonna blog about my thoughts and life!
I hpe this blog will enable you to know me better and pls do provide any constructive feedback for my blog or even any comments on my entries.
Hope you enjoy my blog!
apologies for the design!
cheers!=D
I hpe this blog will enable you to know me better and pls do provide any constructive feedback for my blog or even any comments on my entries.
Hope you enjoy my blog!
apologies for the design!
cheers!=D
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