Finally I understand what it really means to do things just to please God. Unbelievable, a breakthrough i must say, though was painful. No Longer I but Christ living in me.
It all started on tuesday when i forgot to bring someone's chem worksheet(i decline to name the person for privacy, though it's a she) due to my carelessness.of course i apologised and offered to pass it to her at night, which she rejected it. She told me to bring it the next day, though she looked unhappy. she even rejected my apology offer of a meal.
2 hours later, she left her precious DS in one of the LTs and when she called me to get it for her, i responded immmediately.got it for her, and safeguarded it in my locker, just to make sure it's not damaged and i have it ard. this must be a good deed right? but the worse was yet to come.
Next morning, just arrived in the lecture, haven had the chance to face my locker, she came to me with a black face bugging for the worksheet and the DS. the worksheet i passed it to her but i told her the DS is in my locker and i have not accessed my locker, so i told her that i will pass it to her later. for the whole lecture she just continued to bug me for the DS and treating me with an indifferent attitude towards me for the whole lecture. I mean, not trying to be insecure, but i really feel unappreciated and sensed that she isn't tat thankful tat i saved her DS after all. Of course i understand is her precious, but i haven had the chance to access the locker. and coz of her continuous bugging, i got frustrated and not wanting her to get blasted by me, i decided to keep quiet and even get myself out of the lt to cool myself down. the ranting continued n in the end I lost control of my emotions n shouted at her. It shocked the LT. even before the lecture ended, i left to cool myself down. The whole day was so bad that i couldn't concentrate on my studies.
Today, i really felt like someone using a sletch hammer smashing my heart. so after my freshman sem lesson, i prayed to God and asked, is this whole thing from you? God just replied me the following:
Jesus died on the cross for the sins of the world, but not all apreciated Him. Though u could have handled it with more calm n composure, but the motivation of the DS thing is spot on. There will be people who will not appreciate the good things that you have done. Key = Do it unto the Lord.
I mean God is using this to break me to be more secure in Him. Unbelievable! God wants me to live "no longer I, but Christ who live in me" lifestyle. All the more, i wanna do the right thing and please God. Comments from other ppl not that impt(as in can still learn from it), so long as my action pleases God, nothing else counts!
Thank you Lord for breaking me once again n help me to live a life that no matter what happens, i will still go out there to bless the ppl u wan me to.=D
That's all n more to come! cheers!
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